I had some good reminders today about why this private practice is an excellent idea right now at this point in my life. I was wanting to do some wrap-up work outside of regular work hours and was strongly discouraged from doing so by my supervisor, which is understandable given some of the parameters she has to work with. But, it's going to be great when I can do my report writing and creative work in my creative hours, from about 9-midnight. :) In the meantime, I'm working like a hound dog when I'm at work, trying to get everything wrapped up well before I go...not many days left!
I also am going through that agonizing 'leaving' process. Parts of it are quite freeing and my joy helps with the sadness. But other parts are just sad, no other way to look at it. I have met some amazing clients in the last few years. Like, to be really honest, I sort of love them, and if life took that path I would even consider adopting a couple of them. Thankfully they're in happy homes with people who love them and advocate on their behalf. :) So I can joke all I want. But I will really truly miss those students, especially the AAC ones - the ones who have no words but whose eyes light up when I come in the room and who show me with their laborious yes/no answers that they have a lot to say. Oy, I'm going to make myself cry here. It has been powerful and really magical work that I've been so honored to do. It really is an honor, even though I have stumbled through so much of it and made many mistakes. I won't name them here of course, but I will carry them in my heart and hope that our paths cross again in the future. I didn't do any of this to get away from them, as they gave my work life meaning. I am seeing the last of those clients this week, so I'm just feeling kind of melancholy about that.
I'm going to miss having coworkers as well, I do know this. I am going to have to work to create professional community around me I think, and find new ways to connect, as connecting is really important to me (thus the name of my practice!). I know many of them will be my friends after I'm done, but it isn't the same as getting to work together, and I'll miss that a lot! We live in a pretty 'small town' city, so I know our paths will cross lots, it will just be in a different way.
So now, I continue the leaving part - packing up, writing notes and lists and having transition meetings. It's good to embrace the leaving, even as you reach forward to the arriving.